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My womb was probably feeling neglected and so it decided it was time to be used. Since I hadn’t been anywhere near a dick recently there wasn’t any sperm to create a new life, so it probably thought it’d be cool to be full of myomas stead of babies. Again. Dudes, it pissed me off royally when my good doctor found a brand new myoma during my last ultrasound. Hey, I’ve removed 10 myomas at 2004, why are they coming back so soon? I knew it could happen, it happened to some people I know including one of my cousins but it was too fast!!

I’m also pissed because in the past ultrasounds showed just 4 myomas and during surgery my doctor found 10, 6 of them hidden behind the 4 bigger ones. Who knows how many are hidden behind this one right now? Paraphrasing Chris Rock, I hate this shit. Needless to say my mother is already worried, probably she’s thinking about me going through another surgery – and given my recent experiences at hospitals nobody wants to think about it. Of course she’s also thinking about eventual grandkids, but I’d already told her to buy a few, I don’t see them popping from me anytime soon. Anyway this little shit is too small, it’ll take my doctor at least one year to decide if I’ll have another surgery. Jesus, I hope no! I should be glad, though, because at least my mammogram showed nothing.

Whatever, another health issue is about my grandmother: she has osteoporosis on both femures and her doctor was very orried about it, according to my mother (who had talked to him). He talked about risks of falling but also said her bones can break even when she’s laying on her bed and that everybody must watch over her all the time from now on. I think my grandmother understands perfectly this situation, she agrees to general opinion that she must be very careful but her mind quite doesn’t accept the facts of life. She’s a stubborn old lady of 89 (90 next September) that very frequently forgets her body isn’t as strong as it was when she was 20.

Her doctor said a surgery will be needed in case of broken bones but obviously she won’t be walking perfectly after that, and eventually she would need an wheelchair. Well, nobody wants to think about it too, instead we’re following her movements when she decides to walk around the house – and I’m sure she thinks it’s quite annoying, even when she goes to the bathroom me or my mother are reminding her to not lock the door, in case we need to go there to see if everything is ok. But so far she’s doing fine and we’ll make sure she’ll be like that for a long time.


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Mar. 25th, 2006 01:22 am (UTC)
Omg, baby, I am so sorry. Just hang in there. Words cannot heal physically, I know, but know you have my support and fingers are crossed for ya here. :) And your grandma as well.

What are the consequences (that you know of)? Giving birth thing... are they sure you can't, or there's just a possibility, or...?

My thoughts are with you, hun!
Mar. 25th, 2006 09:09 pm (UTC)
Thanks, sweetie, so far it's too small and probably will be like that for a while. Last time it took them about 3 years to grow enough in order to my gyno decide for a surgery, and only in the end I was bleeding more during my periods and having more cramps. I don't think I'll have any trouble in getting pregnant, though - at least when it's in the beginning like it is now. Well, right now I don't think in having babies but probably I'll have to remove this one if it grows too much before any pregnancy. Anyway everything is quite quiet now, I think I can pretend there's nothing growing inside me for a while, *g*
Mar. 25th, 2006 02:22 am (UTC)
Oh, hon! Many {{{{hugs}}}}!
Mar. 25th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC)
Thanks! See, so far it's not bothering me, and I knew more or less it could happen again but it was too fast, that's what annoys me. Anyway I'll pretend it doesn't exist until it starts giving me a hard time, ;o)
Mar. 25th, 2006 02:47 am (UTC)
My dear, everything happening at the same time, you need a break.
And an anti-anxiety pill of some kind.
Hope your grandmother stays as well as can be.
Mar. 25th, 2006 09:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Luci - you see, things happen in waves, don't they? But we're ok, grandma is following her doc's reccomendations and I'm feeling fine, just pretending this little thing inside of me doesn't really exist, *g*
Mar. 25th, 2006 07:07 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry this is happening; there is never a good time for ill health but this is far too soon. Good luck with your grandmother.
Mar. 25th, 2006 09:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks, girl, she's following her doctor reccomendations, and my little myoma will take some time to grow, so I think everything is gonna be alright for some time! ;o)
Mar. 25th, 2006 10:52 pm (UTC)
Oh, sweetie, I'm sorry! It seems like everything happens at once, huh? I'll be praying for you, and your grandmother, and I'm sending you my best thougts and big hugs!
Mar. 25th, 2006 11:03 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Maddie - she's behaving, and this little thing inside me is too small, so I think at least for some time things will be fine! :o)
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